Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
I once was shackled, held down without my will by the way some people wanted me to be.
I once tried to do it their way, but it back fired on me. It was discomforting, it was completely against the person I perceive myself as.
I forfeited all of it, being captive is not how I’d want to live out my life.
Now that I am confident in my passions, they’re upset that I’m certain with my decisions. Since I didn’t do it their way, now they’re new enemies, against me…
Try to tack me on a wall to be they’re poster, I’m no carbon copy and I finally realize that. I am one in a life time.This is one battle I’ll certainly give my all to win. I’ve put my boxing gloves on and laced them well, this is the fight of my life, I’m in a ring with multiple individuals against me.
I’m going to continue to fight until I’m the only one standing, even if my life slips away as soon as I succeed.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
I haven’t been all I could be. I don’t serve you as much as I should.
When I committed sins, you didn’t turn your back on me when you could.
I thank you for that Father.
I’m trying to change, trying to progress, because without you I become emotionally drained.
I surrender. I truly do.
For it’s only you that helps me get through.
Once I was trapped in the dark, silent tears of unhappiness. Silent tears of confusion. The enemy tried to get a grip of me, but at first I don’t realize because it slowly had crept upon me.
I prayed but not hard enough at first because I was still detained. Until I shouted your name, uplifting you Lord, my sorrow had erased.
I realize that I’ve had to go through valley of hurt, and to still believe that you’d help me, that’s the true meaning of faith.
I trust in you. I know that my life isn’t over, until you say it is.
For now on, I’m going to be all I could be, for I know that Christ lives in me.
It’s depressing when someone I know becomes a product of “sex sales” and is now intertwined into the gruesome world that promotes one must bare their bodies to be told that they are beautiful. She wants to be beautiful, wanted, the one men lust for. She forfeited all her morals, now the un-titled promiscuous girl to the moral-ed minds, but beautiful in the shallow minds.
What happened to the girl that once sat beside me and would say how sad it was about the girls exposing them selves in the magazines and television screen? Were you just saying that out of envy?
She’s lost. she’s in a ditch, but she is convinced that the ditch is the best placed to be, she doesn’t care that she sold her soul. Untamed Life’s a b*tch.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
I got my hair cut off, shaved off, and dyed. I wanted to finally take a risk at the things I want to do with my hair, regardless of if its too wild looking to people. I definatlely do like my hair, but I'm not going to lie, sometimes for me it's a bit hard to style it the way I want to. But thats when I had long hair, or weaved hair. lol I find my self wasting so much time trying to find a decent shirt that'll look okay with my hair cut. Like I don't want to look too boyish or something. I know I sound crazy, but I'm trying to get over this. I know short cuts are feminine, it's still taking me time to get used to it. Heres a picture the day after I went to Paul Mitchell's beauty school and had a friend there do it.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I would like to know what it is like some day.
Even though I've never experienced it, I know it's something amazing.
I just look at my parent's marriage of 24 years the proof of it.
Love is unconditional.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
She refuses to believe my hair falling out because of the perm -__-.
Transitioning=hair fall out.
She says "its cause you haven't been getting your perms on that hair". mhm.
I see that there is 2 new patches of just new growth, no perm left there, the hair fell out.
She shakes her head in disapprovement of this.
She says "in a minute you going to be gluing tracks on your head".
I really wish she'd stop being so negative.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
So I washed my hair a few days ago and took pics, wanted to show you my new growth. I can't wait for my perm to grow out. Perms make my curly hair wavy and I CAN'T stand it!
My roots are so thick I can't put my hair into a ponytail good enough.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I'm so tired of the complainers on hair that has nothing to do with them. Then the complainer said "It'll take a long time for your hair to grow back". I said "I know, so its best I start now." The complainer was left mad, and I was mad as well. Like seriously, I'm so tired of this! I for one rarely straighten my hair, I twist it because I have curly extensions, but from time to time I like to wear extstentions. I can't wait to go natural. I miss it. I miss the freedom of washing my hair everyday if I wanted to and not worrying about if it breaks off from the chemicals mixed with water. I'm doing this all for me. Not for anyone else. I felt like a sell out the moment the perm was applied to my hair. I felt guilty and ashamed. I am excited for my journey.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Photos from Model Mayhem
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
This woman's style and beauty is to die for! Or is that just me? Her choreography is also to die for. She choreo'd singer Aalyiah's dance moves in Try Again I believe, and cheoreo'd in many more videos. I am digging that red lipstick I must figure out what color she's wearing!
Friday, March 12, 2010
Now its time for my Curvaceous chicas. These ladies are often under appreciated and misrepresented, when I say that people in the fashion industry use size 6 models and call that plus size and in realization that isn't plus size, sure a size 6 woman can be curvy, but that's not the curvy I'm talking about. Most of my family members are curvaceous big and beautiful women, so I know I must REPRESENT them to the fullest. These are women that are not to be reckon' with because they are coming full force, rocking realistic body types. GO LADIES!