Thursday, December 30, 2010

Arlenis Sosa

I adore this woman. One of my favorite models. This is so Black Senorita, I'd love to try this look

Irregular Choice

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

1st day of Johannes Berg, Africa

Made it back from America 2 Nights Ago

I just come by from the UK, by way of Africa. me, the family, and the rest of the crew went to Johannes Berg, Africa and Cape Town, Africa for 8 days, and then on the way back to flying to America we got caught into the horrible UK weather. Causing our flights to be canceled, we were stuck in the UK for about another week! Crazy, right? By the grace of God we have funds to be in a hotel instead of sleeping for a week in the airports. I'll be posting tons of photos and discussing my experiences while I can!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

The Noisettes.

Wynter Gordan is my new fancy, I like her music
Wynter Gordan

Friday, December 3, 2010

I forgot to tell you, I shaved more of my hair off a month ago. And got exstentions for Winter Ball. I'll post the pictures later.

Taking Hold The Reigns Upon Me

I once was shackled, held down without my will by the way some people wanted me to be.

I once tried to do it their way, but it back fired on me. It was discomforting, it was completely against the person I perceive myself as.

I forfeited all of it, being captive is not how I’d want to live out my life.

Now that I am confident in my passions, they’re upset that I’m certain with my decisions. Since I didn’t do it their way, now they’re new enemies, against me…

Try to tack me on a wall to be they’re poster, I’m no carbon copy and I finally realize that. I am one in a life time.This is one battle I’ll certainly give my all to win. I’ve put my boxing gloves on and laced them well, this is the fight of my life, I’m in a ring with multiple individuals against me.

I’m going to continue to fight until I’m the only one standing, even if my life slips away as soon as I succeed.


Sunday, November 14, 2010

Dear God

I haven’t been all I could be. I don’t serve you as much as I should.

When I committed sins, you didn’t turn your back on me when you could.

I thank you for that Father.

I’m trying to change, trying to progress, because without you I become emotionally drained.

I surrender. I truly do.

For it’s only you that helps me get through.

Once I was trapped in the dark, silent tears of unhappiness. Silent tears of confusion. The enemy tried to get a grip of me, but at first I don’t realize because it slowly had crept upon me.

I prayed but not hard enough at first because I was still detained. Until I shouted your name, uplifting you Lord, my sorrow had erased.

I realize that I’ve had to go through valley of hurt, and to still believe that you’d help me, that’s the true meaning of faith.

I trust in you. I know that my life isn’t over, until you say it is.

For now on, I’m going to be all I could be, for I know that Christ lives in me.

-Sarah Brooke

Little Girl Lost, where'd you go?

It’s depressing when someone I know becomes a product of “sex sales” and is now intertwined into the gruesome world that promotes one must bare their bodies to be told that they are beautiful. She wants to be beautiful, wanted, the one men lust for. She forfeited all her morals, now the un-titled promiscuous girl to the moral-ed minds, but beautiful in the shallow minds.

What happened to the girl that once sat beside me and would say how sad it was about the girls exposing them selves in the magazines and television screen? Were you just saying that out of envy?

She’s lost. she’s in a ditch, but she is convinced that the ditch is the best placed to be, she doesn’t care that she sold her soul. Untamed Life’s a b*tch.


Saturday, November 6, 2010

Why I cut my hair

My opinions on hot I think I look with short hair is like a teeter-totter. Can it please just be balanced, and stay balanced? Sometimes I feel like my short hair is boyish on me.. Then sometimes I'm happy with it. Then one minute I miss having loner hair, and want to dash to the nearest beauty supply for some hair extensions. Not saying I won't do it, because I plan on adding extensions on the side of my hair for Winter Ball, but I'm trying to make myself be comfortable with the real me for now. You know, you should never leave to another home, if your home isn't happy first.. So with that said I need to learn some styling so I won't be bored with my hair. Sometimes I can regret what I did. But what ever, the reason I cut it was to face one of my biggest challenges: Shaving my hair and cutting it. I achieved it, but I have troubles accepting what I did sometimes. I hope I get over it though.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

New phase hair cut!

I got my hair cut off, shaved off, and dyed. I wanted to finally take a risk at the things I want to do with my hair, regardless of if its too wild looking to people. I definatlely do like my hair, but I'm not going to lie, sometimes for me it's a bit hard to style it the way I want to. But thats when I had long hair, or weaved hair. lol I find my self wasting so much time trying to find a decent shirt that'll look okay with my hair cut. Like I don't want to look too boyish or something. I know I sound crazy, but I'm trying to get over this. I know short cuts are feminine, it's still taking me time to get used to it. Heres a picture the day after I went to Paul Mitchell's beauty school and had a friend there do it.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Never Been In Love

I've never been in love before.
I would like to know what it is like some day.
Even though I've never experienced it, I know it's something amazing.
I just look at my parent's marriage of 24 years the proof of it.
Love is unconditional.

I dig Zoe's style.

Black and white

I took these back in August.

Friday, October 15, 2010


I have this amazing plan, to take the industry by storm.

Ready. Set. Write.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Falling out part 2

She blames my hair falling out because I'm "flat ironing my dang hair too much". I only flat iron once a week normally, and I don't even bone straight it, nor do I turn the temperature up on the flat iron on high. One some occasions I would do a run through on my roots, or I would put a waver iron quickly through my real hair. I wash my hair about every 6-9 days.

She refuses to believe my hair falling out because of the perm -__-.

Transitioning=hair fall out.

She says "its cause you haven't been getting your perms on that hair". mhm.

I see that there is 2 new patches of just new growth, no perm left there, the hair fell out.
She shakes her head in disapprovement of this.
She says "in a minute you going to be gluing tracks on your head".

I really wish she'd stop being so negative.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

My hair. Transitioning pics

So I washed my hair a few days ago and took pics, wanted to show you my new growth. I can't wait for my perm to grow out. Perms make my curly hair wavy and I CAN'T stand it!

My roots are so thick I can't put my hair into a ponytail good enough.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Black Pride

Me with my Black pride t-shirt. It was too big when I ordered it, but it worked in my favor. So my sister (A'keiba) cut it for me, and I love off the shoulder tees alot anyways :].

my school expectations

So school starts for me in less than two weeks. I'm looking forward to it, because this is my last year until I'm able to go and pursue my dreams. My plans for this school year is to stay really focused, but not stress myself out. I hope that I stay on the right track, and make the best grades ever. I was never a "popular" kid so I know that will never become an issue for me, heck I hardly have any friends

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Transitioner Offically

So me going natural is official. I've already had someone complain to me saying "WHY are you going natural when you wear weaves anyways?" The way this person see's is that if your NATURAL you should just wear it natural, like a fro' because thats the point of being natural. blahhh. Being natural is best because of the versitility! I can go straight, curly, fro', or even add a few tracks for flare. But no the complainer doesn't see that point at all, they just think if your wearing your hair straight or with added hair you should get a perm Point blank. - ___-

I'm so tired of the complainers on hair that has nothing to do with them. Then the complainer said "It'll take a long time for your hair to grow back". I said "I know, so its best I start now." The complainer was left mad, and I was mad as well. Like seriously, I'm so tired of this! I for one rarely straighten my hair, I twist it because I have curly extensions, but from time to time I like to wear extstentions. I can't wait to go natural. I miss it. I miss the freedom of washing my hair everyday if I wanted to and not worrying about if it breaks off from the chemicals mixed with water. I'm doing this all for me. Not for anyone else. I felt like a sell out the moment the perm was applied to my hair. I felt guilty and ashamed. I am excited for my journey.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

I regret perming my hair...

Ugh... I really miss my natural hair. I got permed April 9th. THE BIGGEST MISTAKE!!! I got talked into getting one, especially since I'd always rock weaves people figured I should get a perm. I was doing fine without a perm. I'm miserable. I'm weaved up right now and the last perm I got was a little over a month ago. I'm now torn between growing it out or re-perming and waiting until next year (when I grad. and move to L.A.) to grow it out. I know when transitioning your hair could break off a ton, and I fear that. I know I'll have to eventually cut it off ughhh. See this is why I should have ran out that salon chair . I shouldn't have got a perm to please someone else. I don't care for my permed hair (as in I don't like it). I shed alot. I can't stand the thinness. What do you think I should do? I'm stuck I need help...


Saturday, July 17, 2010

I miss you guys!!

:[... *Sigh* I abandoned this blog world for so long. And I feared coming back on for some odd reason. I miss my readers (if there is any for that matter). I just miss this place as a whole, I l know I've missed a ton of posts on blogs that I'm subbed to. I'm back, but here's the catch. I started a tumblr yesterday. And it's really something I'm going to keep up on. I'll try my hardest to stay relevant here as well. If your on tumblr follow me, :]

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Will no longer be natural...

As crazy as it sounds, I will be ending my 9 years of being natural. I never really thought I'd be doing this, but I am. The styles I want to do with my hair texture doesn't work, and the flat ironing constantly is too damaging for me. So I'll be getting relaxed this up coming week and I'm scared! But its okay, because like India Arie said "I am not my hair", I like to change it up, so who knows, I'll be natural again one day. :]

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Big hair Affair

Big hair is so fierce, I Love rocking big hair, but it's probably because I have a big head! Haha But I'll wear my hair sleek & straight from time to time, but nothing better than big hair.

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Thursday, March 18, 2010

Deep beauty.

Gosh these are breathtaking...
photos from:model mayhem.

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Fatima Robinson

This woman's style and beauty is to die for! Or is that just me? Her choreography is also to die for. She choreo'd singer Aalyiah's dance moves in Try Again I believe, and cheoreo'd in many more videos. I am digging that red lipstick I must figure out what color she's wearing!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Curvaceous ladies!

Modelmayhem has everyone on there showcasing their talent rather it be modeling, wizarding, make up, hair styling, photography, etc. Gotta love it.
Now its time for my Curvaceous chicas. These ladies are often under appreciated and misrepresented, when I say that people in the fashion industry use size 6 models and call that plus size and in realization that isn't plus size, sure a size 6 woman can be curvy, but that's not the curvy I'm talking about. Most of my family members are curvaceous big and beautiful women, so I know I must REPRESENT them to the fullest. These are women that are not to be reckon' with because they are coming full force, rocking realistic body types. GO LADIES!
Before showing you these beautiful models let me give you the definition of curvaceous.

cur·va·ceous:(of a woman) having a well-shaped figure with voluptuous curves.

So anyone that doesn't agree can leave. And without further ado heres the ladies and much more to come.

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Dreads to envy!

And her name is m Ms Nerissa. she's a beauty isn't she? Her and her locks are a BEAUTY.

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ohh wait heres another woman...
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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Did someone say MOB??

I did! Check out their Spring collection. It is hot! I will be getting my hands on a few of those tees.
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