Monday, March 28, 2011

Being called beautiful

For some reason this past year I've been called beautiful or sexy, so much more than I ever have before in my younger years.... It's crazy. I have the worst confidence sometimes, and then someone out of no where will call me 'beautiful', and I just don't know how to take it, I'm flattered, and shocked. I was called beautiful by adults as a kid, but not really by people my age, they were so caught up telling the next girl she was beautiful because they were the lighter of the bunch. I used to be overlooked more often than none. It damaged me. I'm not writing this for pity, I'm writing this because its just so shocking of how things can change all of a sudden. I was the little girl with low self esteem, I was the little girl who hardly got compliments. That was me. And now, I'm starting to allow myself to see my own beauty.

I love to smile, But I hardly like to smile for photos because my cheeks are so huge, and my eyes tend to squint. But I remember this moment when I took this photo on my webcam. I was confident, I was happy.

Sunday, March 20, 2011